Feelings, whoa whoa whoa, feelings

Hi friends (if there are any of you left reading this since I have been gone for soooo long). I am missing my blog. I've been thinking, why have I been neglecting it? I know why. My sweet baby boy, who has somehow become 5 years old right in front of my eyes, is starting Kindergarten in two weeks. I'm so excited for him, truly. I think he will love it--learning so much, making friends (which comes so easily for him), etc. But at the same time, I am having lots of sadness as a Mom. I have spent every day with him, have been the one home with him since he was born. I've taken care of him when he's sick, hurt, mad, happy, silly . . . everything. Just being his mom, which I wouldn't trade for a second, even when I'm frustrated and having one of those "moments." And now he's starting his school career, being gone every day, and while I know these are wonderful, amazing times for him, things are changing. His life is starting a new chapter, and it's sad for me, although he will never know this. I just love him more than he will ever know. So, blog, I'm neglecting you because I want to savor these last weeks with Matthew before the next chapter begins. Every. Single. Moment.